I want some things out of life! I know I will never get them.  I know my Sissy wants some things out of life too.  I fear she will never get them either.  I am not even close to being perfect...but just remember, neither are you!  I want someone in my life to think a little more about things.  Ok, nevermind, I'll never change you or make you think any different so, forget it.  I have a feeling you think you did nothing wrong.  I know you did the best you can...oh wait...no you didn't.  Stop being so slefish!  At least I ADMIT that I am!  Doesn't make me better just saying...

I miss my boys sooooooooooooooooooooooooo much!!!  I am crying EVERY day!  I am waiting for the day that they can come live with me again!!  I am doing all that I can to get this apt. ready!  I have painted EVERY room except the bathroom. (which I will do soon)  I want to make it a place that they will feel comfortable in.  I also want Mike to be proud of it.  Well, even if he's not proud he should like it. 

I love you boys so much and please know that Mommy misses you terribly and wants you here more than anything in this world!!!  I need to go to bed now so I'm not so sad.

G'nite all